The past 2 entries I’ve said basically the same thing over and over again, just using different phrases. The bottom line is that I’m trying to grow my faith. Throughout my whole life I’m been under the mistaken impression that it is what I did that would let me be acceptable in the sight of others and my God. Bad theology. God doesn’t care what you do, although faith without works is dead…and vice versa.
So I am trying to grow my faith. Is there enough Bible teaching, enough sermon note taking that would allow me to grow my faith? Ultimate faith comes from within. It takes years to develop. It doesn’t crumble under pressure. It doesn’t suddenly retract when it finds out fellow Christians aren’t perfect.
I just wish I could gain that faith that I had when I first became a Christian. Depression has crumbled my faith. I’m stuck. I’m frustrated. I wish things could get better. Ultimately I think they will. It just takes patiences.