I foresee being able to have faith once again. A kid in my Sunday school class was baptized Sunday. Through that I was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I felt like I really had made a difference in this young person’s life. There is no greater joy than seeing a new Christian baptized, especially if you already know them beforehand.
Unfortunately I’ve let other people dictate my feelings. When people threaten you and tell you that you aren’t good enough for a particular church activity, you tend to believe it, even when that person is supposedly a leader in the church. It was my mistake in believing them. Don’t ever let anyone else tell you that you aren’t good enough. If you do, you have lost the fight.
I for one, KNOW that I am good enough for church. I have made a great deal of difference in dozen of young people’s lives. Many of them look toward me for guidance and merely a friend who will give them straight answers from a Biblical perspective, but not necessarily from a hard-nosed uncompromising perspective.
The kids have asked me why I wasn’t at camp. I tell them that I got a new job and wasn’t able to take off. That’s the easy answer. The real truth is that I really was depressed, and a depressed camp counselor is just not good these days. So it was probably for the best that I did get my job when I did. I know I’ll be able to return to camp next year after this depression is all over with.