Doubt is my curse. I told the kids in my Bible class that “Anytime you worry, you are doubting the power of God.” Ironically I am the worst worriers ever. I tell the kids not to worry, but worry myself. Perhaps I am trying to reassure them as much as myself.
Self doubt may ultimately keep me from being the person who I know I should be, who I could be. Ultimately it is not anyone else who is holding me back. It is myself. I am my own worst enemy.
So what do I plan on doing about it? Probably taking steps to make myself more confident. Putting myself in situations which would make me have to step up to the plate and do something. I get that opportunity Sunday night with a youth devo. Maybe it’ll work out. I’ve been told the kids respect me, so hopefully they will listen. It’s the parable of the sower, which is very relavent to their own lives at this point.
I can’t look at the past. I can only look toward the future.