A friend and I were discussing friendships tonight. We both agreed that I can be incredibilty difficult to become close friends with me. It could take years for me to be completely trusting of a friend. I have many aquaintances; and few friends – the latter by my choosing. I have difficulty with holding grudges once I’ve been wronged. I would like to overcome this problem as there are people in my life which I should have a better relationship with.
Some people are comfortable with a large number of friends. I’ve seen people on Facebook with 1,000+ friends. In the back of my mind I’m thinking there is no way these people know all of their Facebook friends, much less try to keep up with all of them. I think it’s a self esteem thing or something. Somewhat justifying their importance to Facebook.
Maybe this trip will change things for me. A better understanding of how the world works and how friendships are made and kept. I’m not necessarily looking for more friends, as I’m comfortable with a few close friends and many acquaintances.