I had a very strange dream last night which I will share.
I’m at church camp. I’m there and its the first day. I haven’t even met the campers in my cabin yet. So all of a sudden some kid is going to get baptized. And then whoever is studying with them says “Well do you want your counselor to baptize you?” And as it turns out I’m his counselor, but I don’t even know him and I’m supposed to baptize this kid (?) So I go back to my cabin to change into the baptismal gear (swimsuit) and by the time I get back the camp director has already baptized the kid.
I’m really not sure what this is supposed to mean. I don’t think I was as upset with the camp director as the fact that I was extremely confused about being asked to baptize someone who I didn’t even know. I mean, it was almost as if it was the counselor’s responsibility to study with the kid and baptize them.
I guess ever since this summer I’ve been feeling like I am capable of studying with kids if they had salvation questions. And I really want to study with them. I’m craving it and even looking for people to study with. Like staying after Wednesday night’s class to answer questions and just seem friendly and accessible to the kids in my class. Nothing would make me happier than studying with someone who really wants to know God’s will for them. I’m not sure I could answer all their questions, but I would definitely try. As far as the dunking is concerned, whether or not I’m the person holding someone briefly underwater shouldn’t make a difference. But somehow it does, at least in the mind of the baptisee….maybe.
What is important to me is making a difference. And feeling good about yourself that you are being looked up to. Not necessarily as being on some kind of power trip. But because you’re a nice guy and only wants the very best for these kids.