There is something good about a new Bible. Maybe it’s the way the pages still stick together as if you the reader are the first person to gaze over the pages. Maybe it’s the way the gold edge of the pages shine.
Compared to my old Bible, this new one makes my old one look ancient. On the inside of the Bible, it says it should not be exposed to high humidity, excessive hot or cold temperatures…which pretty much rules out any outside environment in Tennessee.
It is the wide margin Bible I wrote about previously. Initually I got a hardback edition, but the cover screamed “college textbook” instead of the basic black I desired. And just for $5 more, I ended up getting a leather bound Bible.
Bibles were made to be used, so I suppose the newness will gradually wear off, literally if you take into account the gold edges.
Occassionally I’ll glance over my minister’s Bible during Sunday School (I’m fortunate to have him as a teacher). I can see there’s alot of history behind this Bible. Huge portions of text underlined, highlighted, notes in the margins. And I think how much this Bible has been though. From a sermon practically every Sunday to personal Bible studies to merely personal studies. And I think about my old Bible and the history behind it. From those daily Bible classes at Lipscomb, where I first was truly made to study my Bible, to all those weeks at camp…with the heat and humidity. Preparation for a cabin devotional, to studying for a camp wide devotonal….and how I could never find the exact passage I was looking for. Isn’t that always the case in Bible class? Someone will always begin a sentence with “Somewhere in the Bible…I can’t remember the verse it says…” Maybe it will change with the right underlining to it and notations….
I guess in some instances I’m rediscovering the Bible. Maybe its the idea of a new transtion without all the thee’s and thou’s. Maybe its the assurance that I don’t have to use a KJV or NKJV and feel reasonably sure I’m getting an accurate transation and adequate message for my needs.
Baptism Planning
Dale Jenkins raises some interesting issues in his latest blog post.
Today it seems that baptisms are planned. No so just a few years ago. I can remember being present at a Gospel Meeting in 1987 where 10+ people were baptized during the week because they were provoked into doing it. They didn’t come to the Gospel Meeting thinking that tonight was the night they’d be dunked.
And later on in 1991 I remember being at a church camp where we’d have late night baptisms because somehow they had been cut in their heart to change their life for the better.
No so today. Today baptisms are planned. Invitees are summoned. Just last month there were a few baptism at camp. And yet only certain people from certain cabins and certain churches were invited. Why? I suppose the baptizee’s wanted some type of control on who witnessed it. Maybe they were ashamed of their belief or past sins they were washing away. Maybe it was stage fright.
Our ministers speak against waiting, using verses like Acts 8:36 and Acts 22:16. And yet parents seem to be all about waiting until they are able to present or until it is right time for their child’s baptism.
I’m certain the right time falls somewhere inbetween. Big decisions with baptism shouldn’t be made on split second decisions based on emotion. Too many times we get overly emotional with our beliefs. And yet at the same time we shouldn’t wait to get baptized when we know what we believe.
Coveting Bibles?
I’m guilty of coveting Bibles. It seems like such a minor infraction. Lately I’ve been dreaming of those wide margin bibles to write lots of notes. So I got one from Ebay. It hasn’t arrived yet.
There’s a part of me that wants to take detailed notes during sermons and Bible lessons in the margins of the Bible. This new one will help in that endevor. The problem is that I can never find that right verse at the right time when someone is asking a Biblical question…whether it is in class….or in a casual discussion.
The canidates were the NASB and NIV. From my teenaged years and onward I had been warned about the NIV…jokingly called the “Non-inspired Version” within my fellowship. So I managed to get the NASB because I don’t think I could reasonably study the NIV without feeling guilty.
And to some extent I feel guilty if I’m not using the NKJV. Therein lies the conflict. God wants us to understand His Word. Merely to understand the word, one might have to use a contemporary translation which might just be a paraphrase of the original Greek/Hebrew. Preachers have told us forever that one can easily understand the steps to salvation merely by picking up the KJV standard. And yet we all scratch our heads when we read “begotten” or that Mary and Joseph were “betrothed.” Still, for me it takes some explaining by my preacher/minister/elder(s)/Bible class teacher/someone in the know.
Growing up I had heard stories that at my church, Bible class teachers were required to use NKJV, KJV, or some other conservative (read non-paraphrased version). NIV was out.
And yet today, I see “God’s Word” versions as the classroom Bible. And when I ask my class to read, I get all sorts of version…many more version that what we had in my youth. I guess with the advent of more and more Christian bookstores, easy-to-read versions have become the norm, at least among parents who wanted their child groomed for Christianity by reading the Bible. It is merely that they are reading some kind of Bible, not necessarily the one my father used.
And yet should I feel guilty for wanting a Bible that is easy to understand? Possibly not, but I still do. Maybe its all those memory verses I had during VBS and Sunday school, seemingly all learned in standard KJV version. When I hear those verses from my youth being read within some other version, it seems watered down.
The wide margin bible? Still waiting on it to be shipped. It’s a hardback, so I’m not sure of how it’ll look. I’m hoping for a decent cover (read no-flair), but in all likelihood I’ll get one of those ugly designed cover using the latest design tools from Lifeway.
In any case I’m hoping for a tool so that I’ll be able to come up with my own cross references as I study, and not necessarily some other cross reference that some other Biblical scholar thinks is important.
Complicated
When did life become so complicated? Take for example my church duties. For better or worse I’ve managed to take on quite a bit of responsiblity at church. And now, due to the absence of a fellow churchworker, I’m probably going to have to take on even more responsibilty. I’m nearing burnout.
And yet I look back on what is the most fulfilling worship I always have. It’s the worship I have on the Sunday morning in June before church camp starts. A group of us arrive on Saturday afternoon to get ready for camp. Then on Sunday morning about 20 or so of us worship God. And then the most complicated thing for me that day during that worship service is picking out the songs to sing.
Have we lost sight on what is most important? I don’t know.
Camp Rundown
Strangely enough I don’t feel as though I could colapse into bed. I’m sure that will change shortly.
I don’t know if there was anything significant to camp. I’m sure it was significant to some people, namely the three teenaged girls who were baptized while we were there. But I’m still trying to find the significance in my life. At this point I don’t know what that is. Maybe this was the camp where I eventually grew up and took responsiblity without necessarily feeling as though I had to do certain things to please myself or those around me.
I’m not necessarily feeling those blues that you get when you get home from camp. I guess it hasn’t hit me yet, and I’m not sure it will.
This week I learned to sleep with loud snoring; how to deal with seven 8 year olds who don’t neccessarily want to pay attention. And I learned that vacation doesn’t neccessarily mean rest. It can be pretty hard work at times – trying to be 2 places at once.
More to come later. I think that idea of colapsing into bed just hit me.
The Choice is Yours
Our theme for camp this year is “Deal or No Deal: Making the Right Choices.” In order to prepare myself I’ve watched a couple of episodes of Deal or No Deal with Howie Mandel in full OCD glory.
I’ve got a short 10 minute devo to do on Tuesday night in front of the entire camp. Preparing a devotional which would be relavent to everybody from 4th grade and up can be difficult. Tenatively I’ve decided to incorporate “How to Save a Life” and the song explaination. And yet I don’t want to put the whole camp on guilt trip while I tell them that sometimes everyone acts differently depending on what situation they’re in (i.e. being a Christian only on Sundays….). The teens I know do it, and nothing is ever said about it.
And so there’s my delima. I’m sure I’ll be incorporating some of the same verses already spoken about in the days of camp previously….(Joshua 24:15, Matthew 6:24).
A friend of mine and I were playing the what ever happened to game the other day. As it turns out those people who I went to camp with some 15 years ago had made some bad choices in life. I guess they never took to heart what was said at camp that year we were there. Those promises and commitments didn’t last all that long. And it is a real shame. We left camp in 1991 and 1992 thinking we could conquer the world for Christianity’s sake. And yet some of us failed. What went wrong? Could it be that those people who failed didn’t get enough support at home or at our own local congregations? Or maybe those who failed just simply made the wrong choices in life with no one to blame but themselves.
I’d be amiss if I didn’t mention that I am slightly disappointed about things that I could have done this week. Somehow I feel segregated and have been made to feel inferior to those around me. They say “Sure, Jeff, you can help out,” while at the same time criticizing me privately. I guess I shouldn’t feel that way, but in reality it hurts.
Choose Your Own Adventure
“Choose Your Own Adventure” was a set of children’s books geared toward the preteen. I had a few of them, but I always chose the same adventure over and over again.
And yet I look back at my real-life career choices, and things might have gone much differently if I had the mindset I have today. If I had it to do over again, I envision myself as a minister working with a rural congregation, having a part time secular job during the week and preaching on Sundays.
Growing up I was much more of an introvert, with very little speaking skills. And yet today I’ve preached or spoken a dozen times at rural congregations and at youth devotionals. Do I enjoy it? Yes. And yet there is something about the aspect of rural congregations that draw me there. Perhaps its the idea of everyone having a purpose. Everyone knows everybody. And everyone has a job to do.
Why did things turn out as it is now? I guess at that time during those formitable teenaged years I was discouraged by my own self doubt. I saw great speakers around me and thought there would be no way for me to live up to those standards.
And I’ve thought about going back to school to get a graduate degree in Bible. But those passing thoughts never make it further than a blog. No application. No entry. No packing up my stuff and moving to grad school.
The camp baptism
I didn’t take this picture, which is why you won’t see this on my Flickr album.
And yet, somehow it’s one of the better baptism pictures I’ve seen: A grandfather cradleing his grandson in the ceremony of baptism. I don’t know either one of the people pictured. I don’t even know who took it, whether it was a professional or an amature shutterbug at the right place at the right now.
The picture was sent to me as part of a greater collection of pictures for a camp fundraising slideshow I was working on.
Why are baptisms so much extra special when it happens at camp? Perhaps its the idea that you don’t immediately go home after a camp baptism. Maybe it’s the feeling that you’re surrounded by new friends and folks you’ve known all your life.
Our minister, David Shannon, has stated recently that when you ask young people to name a time when they felt closest to God, it was during a retreat or summer camp. For me this is very much the truth. Even after 15 years of on and off again summer camp, for the most part I come back refreshed and renewed, and smiling.
This year I’ll be assisting with a high school boy’s class and giving a short devotional Tuesday night. I guess I’ve moved on since those early days of being green freshfaced college student, who’s major contribution to camp was checking cabins for cleanliness.
Back in El Salvador unprepared
(Jeff’s note: this is a dream I had last night)
“I didn’t know you were religous!” I said to him. After all throughout high school he never made mention of his religion, nor that he was a member of the church of Christ.
“I try not to mention it,” he said as he held a book critical of the church of Christ.
We were back in El Salvador driving around in an urban landscape trying to find the place we were staying at. And I was totally unprepared. Sure, I had brought my clothes and usual packing supplies. But I had forgotten my food, which usually sustained me throughout the week. This left me worried and anxious.
And now I look back at my real-life trip to El Salvador and find I never had a spiritual connection to those people around me. Somehow I got caught up my own digestive concerns and the filthiness of the environment, to actually notice the religious renewal happening around me. Am I a bad person for not wanting to join a group of Christians in a inpromptu song service just outside of our hotel? Absolutely not! And yet sometimes I feel those around me subtly make me feel guilty in times like those. You didn’t join us for the singing? You didn’t get a warm fuzzy feeling in your heart?
And my acquaintance in high school who never spoke of his religion? There are plenty of people like that. Some people just never make mention of their religion, even though they never take part in a sinful lifestyle. Sometimes I feel as though I’m falling into that retreat of refraining from outwardly showing my religious lifestyle.
Dreams
Lately I’ve been having dreams that I’m back in high school. Either I’m unprepared for a test or the teacher is being horrendously strict and I’m unable to deal with either situation.
People who interpret dreams would say I’m fearful that I’m being evaluated. Dreaming of being unprepared for a test would indicate I’m fearful that I’m overlooking something at work. I think both intrepretation could easily sum up my life right now.
I routinely think about work while I’m at home. I know I should leave my work at the office, but somehow I’m so much involved in work, that it is difficult to leave problems at work.
It’s been a while since I’ve had an enjoyable “good” dream. Instead its mostly about work or school, usually involving a difficult problem to solve or a difficult situation.
They say that if you dream about work, it’s as if you are working since your brain cannot distinguish between a work dream and work in reality. So after a night of dreaming about work, and then going to work the next day, its as if you’ve worked twice as hard day and night.