This old house

My parents moved into a new house recently. The house they moved away from was the house I grew up in. Before I moved out a couple of years ago, I had known no other home, except for some brief stays at the college dorm. And even then, can you really count a college dormatory as a home?
That house that I once knew as my childhood home is no more. I guess memories of the past and present sorta evaporated once they made my old bedroom into an office. The kitchen, living room, and other rooms were somewhat how they were. But yet, I’ve been gone for way too long to consider it a home.
I do have somewhat of an emotional attachment to the house. I’m sorry to see it empty. At one time it was full of life…when my sister and I were still kids and living at home. Now it is merely a shell of a house. Some furniture is still there…the stuff they want left behind…eventually sold or donated to Katrina victims.
I have mostly good memories of the house. The long driveway which I used to ride my bicycle down…the front yard where we would play summer games of bad minton….the garden where my mom spent so much of her time picking tomatoes and squash…the den where I spent time in front of an old Zenith TV playing with my Hot Wheels cars, Transformers, and G.I. Joes. The memories are still there…in one’s own mind and in the pictures from old family photo albums.
I’m feeling somewhat like my great-grandmother must have felt like when she was told that the house she had spent 60+ years in had been torn down. She must have felt somewhat betrayed and helpless (being in a nursing home in Sparta…).
Can one grieve the loss of a house like one grieves for the loss of an old friend? Maybe. Maybe the house is an old friend who has changed to the point of not being recognizable anymore.

Winterfest vs. CYC

There is a pronounced rift between conservative churches of Christ and liberal churches of Christ. As one might expect, the liberals tend to try to be innovative, somewhat pushing the envelope. Conservatives seem unwilling to change, but at the same time grounded in the truth.
Nowhere is this rift seems so apparent is during winter in Gatlinburg. On one viewpoint there’s the liberal Winterfest, while at the otherside of the spectrum, there is the CYC – Challenge Youth Conference.
Originally Winterfest was the only youth rally sponsored by the Churches of Christ. I attended Winterfest during my college years… My role was halfway between a student and a chaperone…possibly a bit more of the former. I don’t remember much of it, except it was all a bit emotional. During one session we were told of a young man who lost his life before he was able to become a Christian. During that point I was emotional myself. Yet now I look back at it and it seems so trival because we have all heard that same story over and over before.
CYC arose from Winterfest’s liberalism. Conservative churches wanted a youth rally in Gatlinburg, but didn’t want the liberalism that Winterfest had become.
Since in recent years the church I attend had pushed CYC and did not mention Winterfest at all, I had assumed that Winterfest had all but died out. Not so. Today I got an email sent to the church’s email address from a representative from my alma mater sent to area churches inquiring about Winterfest and giving the opportunity to receive goodies…as in beanies for the kids. Winterfest is sponsored by the more liberal Lipscomb University…among other sponsors, while CYC is sponsored by the conservative Freed-Hardeman, Southern Christian and Faulkner Universities.
So now one must have to image what the storekeepers in Gatlinburg think when there are seemlingly two large youth rallies among the churches of Christ within (sometimes) consecutive weekends in Feburary.

The Butterfly Effect

It has been said something as small as the flutter of a butterfly’s wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world.
– Chaos Theory

In the film, The Butterfly Effect, the main character, Evan Treborn, experiences blackouts during traumatic childhood events. Also during his childhood he keeps a journal of his day’s activities on the advise of his psychologist.
Now an adult Evan rediscovers the childhood journals and how he can change the present day by reliving events in his journals. So it seems that some of those tramatic events play a huge role in present day.
This is all part of the butterfly effect…that is if you were to travel back in time to change even one minute detail, the whole future could be suddenly altered…that is all things are connected somehow by past events…by decisions one makes, no matter how inconsequental it may seem at the time.
The film itself is intriging and keeps the viewer interested throughout. And it makes the viwer wonder…is there a past event you could change, what would it be? Is there an event that had it turned out differently, would it make one less introverted, more trusting of others, less paranoid, and ulitmately make for a more fuller life? One has to wonder…
Ultimately one needs to forget about the past…as the past has a tendency to hold one back from future pursuits. Mankind is always looking back toward the past since the future is so difficult to imagine. It is this past that puts us on nostalgia trips and sometimes guilt trips.

Photos

I’ve got a couple of sites bookmarked…this one and this one…both photolog sites. Somehow I think that the authors of these photologs must commute to work and carry a camera on them at all times. New York City must be an interesting place to take pictures. And somehow I think I could find something in Hermitage to take photos of.
I tried it. For several weeks or months, I took my camera with me on my commute to work. Yet it just ended up buried in a pile of stuff in the backseat of my Beetle. Batteries probably started running low. I guess I never slowed down enough to notice the world around me.
My parents gave me these pictures for Christmas. The picture of myself was old and faded. They got a photo specialist to restore it. It’s neat to look back and notice how small that outfit was and how I used to fit into it. And it’s intersting to see how my nephew has the same characteristics as me.

Pizza

I consider myself somewhat of a pizza connoisseur. And within the past year or so, having moved out and becoming fully accustomed to the bachelor lifestyle, pizza has become even more important. I have pizza at least 2 time a week, usually more.
There is usually a wide range of quality and options for pizza lovers like myself. I have my favorites.

  • Bellacinos – There just so happens to be 2 within easy driving distance of my house. While definitely not a powerplayer in the pizza wars, it is definitely good food. I tend to get a small sausage pizza with the cheese breadsticks. It is the breadsticks and dipping sauce that make the meal. One drawback is that they charge 50 cents for the dipping sauce, when it really should come with the sticks. I’ve eaten numerous meals of the same exact variety at the Hermitage Bellacino’s, so often that the employees know my name and exactly what I ordered.
  • Pizza Hut – Probably the most filling pizza out there. You really can eat a Pizza Hut pizza and truly make it a meal and not be hungry for several hours afterwards. The ‘Huts are all around and you can be pretty sure what you’re getting. In the meantime, I have problems with the Mt. Juliet Pizza Hut. On a handful of occassions they’ve been out of the personal pan pizza dough and lost a sale. Plus I’ve seen employees eating in the food prep area, apparently a big no-no in the food score rating.
  • Papa John’s – Almost always good quality. I’ve had good service from the Mt. Juliet area Papa John’s. However the Hermitage outlet is another story. Countless numbers of times I’ve walked in, found half a dozen employees in the back making pizzas…or just standing around talking, while 1 or 2 employees are up front answering phone calls. Somehow they would put the customers on the phones ahead of me…they would continue to take phone calls while I would stand there for 5 minutes waiting patiently. Then again I feel like they should train all employees all of the jobs…from making the pizzas to taking orders so that there would be no wait. Somehow it seems a bit frustrating to have so many people in the back not doing much of anything while I wait patiently for someone to take my order.
  • Domino’s – Pretty much on par with Papa John’s…only slightly lower quality. Trust me, it’s good and I find myself eating there quite a bit. Mt. Juliet’s Domino’s used to have a guy there who seemed to hate working there and you could tell it when speaking to him over the phone. I haven’t seen him in quite a while…
  • Store Bought Pizzas In terms of value and quality, Totino’s pizza wins hands down. You can get them for around $1 and find good taste. Tortino’s aren’t so filling. Tombstone pizza is good too, with a higher quality than Totino’s. I stay away from Tony’s Pizza (too spicy) and Red Barron (lack of taste). And I find myself exclaiming “I Can’t Believe I Just Ate a Digiorno!” After all Digiorno has some type of unnecessary doughy taste to it.

Dystopia

I’ve always been a fan of movies set in the future. Back to the Future Part II, Mad Max come to mind. Along with those set in the future are those movies in a dystopia – that is a corrupt government where there is a nightmare senerio. Often the opposite of a utopian society. Twelve Monkeys come to mind.
Two of these futuristic dystopian films are in the news lately. One I’ve managed to catch via the web, while the other I’ve only seen previews of.
I saw Idiocracy via the web this weekend. It is set to be released on DVD tomorrow. Written and directed by Mike Judge, the same guy who gave us Beavis and Butthead, King of the Hill, and Office Space, the film depicts an unusual view of the future. Seems that Judge has a theory of how the future might be. As the smarter people decided to have less (if any children) the dumber rednecks have more and more kids. Without natural selection the stupid people reproduce at a much higher rate than the smart people, thereby making illegence less common.
After a hybernation experiment goes wrong, a very average army volunteer wakes up 500 years later to find that mankind has become stupid. This average person from the past is easily the smartest person on the planet and soon becomes a key player in the US President’s cabinet.
Judge offers some unique views of how the future might look with a dumb society…including replacing water with a Gatorade-like substance (even used for watering non-existent crops) to having Costco offering law school degrees within its massive stores the size of small cities.
Unfortunately I can easily see that dumb people are reproducting at a much higher rate than intelligent people. “They’re breeding” I tell myself when I see the 3rd or 4th child born to people who can’t handle one child. One only need to browse around Myspace (noting the netspeak) or people watch at the local Walmart store to see an example of how dumb people are these days.
I have yet to see Children of Men, only the trailer… It is one of the very few films out in recent years that I have wanted to see in the theater, rather than wait for DVD or TV. The film offers yet another bleak outlook for a futuristic society of a totalitarian police state where society is so depressed that antidepressants are given out along with rations.
What is so bleak about this society is that women have been unable to have children since 2009. The film takes place in 2027. The main character must protect a pregnant woman from the mobs and chaos.
Both Idiocracy and Children of Men are two very different movies. The former will not win any awards, but may gain a cult following much like Office Space. On the other hand, Children of Men might win an Oscar.

YouTube Roundup

Somehow YouTube has become my new addiction these days. Here’s a list of my favorite music finds on YouTube lately.

  • Mat Wedder – “Hey Ya” – It’s a cover of Outkast’s “Hey Ya.” Better than the original. Reminds me how sad the song can be. “We know we aren’t happy here…”
  • Death Cab for Cutie -“I Will Follow You into the Dark” – The ever expanding hole coupled with the haunting line “If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied…illuminate the “No’s” on their vacancies signs…”
  • Coldplay – “The Scientist” – Somehow I missed this when it first came out. (Thanks MTV) A video filmed entirely backwards…and the lead singer had to mouth the words backwards. Wanna watch it backwards?
  • U2 – “Window to the Skies” This video shows old footage of bands and artists somehow lipsynced to U2’s lyrics. See how many you can identify. Members of U2 appear in the audience showing that they, are not only music makers, but also fans of the great ones.
  • White Stripes – Denial Twist – Chronicling their appearance on the Conan O’Brien Show

Gerald Ford

Having been born in 1975 I am too young to remember the Watergate mess. Consequentally I am really too young to remember Gerald Ford’s presidency. The first president I really remember is Ronald Reagan.
A friend and I were remarking how Jimmy Carter is more popular post presidency than as president. And Gerald Ford might be more popular dead than he ever was alive.
They say that Gerald Ford’s pardon of Nixon cost him the presidency. I would tend to agree. America wanted some type of closure to Watergate. Ford’s pardon was his form of closure, but it just didn’t play well with the American public at the time.
But can anyone remember anything that Ford did as a president? The phrase that come to mind is “Ford pardoned Nixon,” and not much else. Perhaps Ford’s role as presidency was to hold the nation together during crisis until the election of 1976. Consequently it is not surprising that an outsider to Washington won the election.
But can anyone remember what Ford did post presidency? Sure he had some golf tournaments and showed up for presidential photo ops. He wasn’t building houses, brokering peace or anything else. It is Betty Ford we remember, post presidency, for establishing the Betty Ford Center for substance abuse.
Still we honor Ford’s death. Watching the Funeral last night gave me a sense of how we honor ALL presidents. The funeral brought back memories of the not-too-distant Reagan funeral. Both seemed to have the same military honor, reminding us that all presidents are honored, no matter what they accomplished in their lives.

To Those Willing to Serve…

“To Those Willing to Serve…” was the phrase used in church bulletins when listing men who publically lead the worship service in some capacity. Usually the listing came in a weekly listing of prayer leaders, song leaders, and Bible readers.
By my count my own church uses 12 people montly on the communion table (that’s 8 upfront, 4 “ushers” in the back). That’s 144 yearly. Then there’s 2 prayer leaders (opening and closing prayers respectively), and a scripture reader. That’s 156 men needed yearly to do this. Keep in mind we have 2 worship services on Sunday morning. This brings us to a grand total of 600 men per year needed to lead publically on Sunday mornings. That’s of course not including the preacher and song leader which is usually the same men over and over.
We have around 700 people who attend on Sunday morning. Of these I’m sure a good 400 or so are members and of these let’s say half are men. So that gives us a pool of 200 men to choose from. Why all the math? I wanted to point out a problem which seems to be effecting the church as a whole. The problem is you tend to see the same people leading prayers, reading scripture and serving on the communion table.
Of course not everyone is willing or capable of leading a prayer, reading scripture publically, or even passing a communion tray. However I do believe that most everyone could be capable of doing some of those things, given enough time and practice.
The problem is that due to apathy or fear members just don’t want to serve, but instead sit back in the pew and wait to be served.
“You must be proud of your son,” a member told a father of a son who had just got done leading a public prayer during worship service. As it turned out the father remarked that it was something he would never be able to do. Do we need an adult equivalent of “Young Soldiers” ? And I’m being told that there are some deacons who will not lead public prayers during worship services. Spiritual leaders indeed?

Hooked on Emotionalism

During my late teen years and early 20s I attended church camp with my home congregation. During those years I could just about place money on which camper would go forward during the invitation song and confess whatever sin they committed during the past school year. We would then pray and then have a huge hug/cry session to aleve the pain.
I think these people were hooked on emotionalism. When they are put in a highly emotional situation they react. However once the emotionalism fades, so does their faith.
“Lord, Sometimes I Just Don’t Feel Saved,” is the title of a book by Michael Moss. And sometimes we feel we need to have that special feeling somewhere in our own heart that lets us know that we’re saved. Once that fades some feel they have to go forward to renew their committment.
Time and time again I have seen the same people go forward over and over at church confessing real or imagined sin, while other people, people who NEED to go forward sit back on their pew and consequently engage in sinful activities on days other than Sunday.
Sadly, or maybe more appropriately realistically, the newness and geniuness of a Christian life has somewhat faded, mostly through negative life experiences with past jobs and church. My relationship with God hasn’t changed. However seemingly this whole hooked on emotionalism has been placed in the backseat and instead utilitarianism has taken its place. I’m not knocking emotionalism. I think for some people it has its place. But what I would like to see is more logic. Logical people examine themselves and ask “Is there anything I’ve done lately that would put me in an unsaved position?” If yes, then change your behavior.