Change

Change is constantly occuring. For example I’ve seen change in Sunday dress at worship services. Shorts for one thing. This is something unheard of just 10 years ago in this particular church. Yet it seems to be a common occurance these days. Almost as if someone were vacationing in Hawaii.
Yet I have made comments on this blog about how I enjoy worshipping in a relaxed environment away from the stuffiness of a formal worship service. I’ve remarked how shorts should be allowed on mission trips in tropical environments.
So why does a change in dress code leave me scratching my head? I guess its that old saying that you should offer God your best in your worship service. So why would some churchgoers tend to dress down…to shorts…on a Sunday morning? In an office environment, for whatever reasons or another, we are expected to wear suits or at least khakis. Why does an office environment get top billing in the wardrobe environment compared to Sunday morning worship?
I think alot more unchurched people are visiting our worship service these days. This is a good thing. After all salvation should never be an inheritance passed down from generation to generation, never shared with those on the outside.
I guess we’ve become relaxed. Maybe. Relaxed about certain things. Uptight about other things.

Flickr

Maybe I was inspired by Todd’s photo montage on his Facebook. I decided to get a Flickr account. View my photos here. It’s mostly a collection of Fireworks photos, but there are a few other gems there. Flickr is much easier than trying to put together one’s own personal gallery on one’s website. I chose Flickr because it seems to have a much cleaner interface than Webshots or Photobucket. Plus I’m being told that it has unlimited space, although there is a monthly bandwidth limit.
Now I’ll admit that I’m not that much a shutterbug anymore. I guess the novelty has worn off or somehow I found that not everything deserves a picture. I took less pictures at camp this year than any other year since I brought my digital camera. Instead I opted to borrow other people’s digital photos. And somehow I found that even if one has the most exceptional digital camera, it is still the person behind the lense that makes the pic good or not.

Rejection

But Jesus said to them, �A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house.�
Mark 6:4
I have preached at a handful of congregations in the past. Notably twice in Scottsville. I’ve given devotionals, taught classes, among many other duties. The place that I do get the most anxious about is doing so at my own congregation. I would never think of giving a short devotional at my home congregation. In some sense, I am even apprehensive about teaching a Sunday school class at my home congregation. As the verse states above, even Jesus was rejected in his hometown.
It’s the same concept when you go back for your high school reunion. You always try to highlight your successes. But somehow you always see yourself being pigeonholed into the same label you were given in high school. Which is probably why I skipped my 10 year reunion.
Now imagine being at your high school reunion every Sunday. People who have watched you grow up are there. Whether they view you in a negative or positive light is not really upto you. Instead they judge you from what you did 20 years ago.
Sure, the church family tends to have a turnover of such every five years or so. I experienced this phenomenon when I came home from college and found I really didn’t know anybody there anymore. However there are still people there who knew you as a child or teenager. People there who are willing to unfairly judge you.
I think people who have grown up in their church, and still attend their church well into adulthood face some diffculty in asserting themselves socially. Older members will tend to unfairly put one up on a pedestal. Being an elder’s son, I consciously seem to think that people put me up on an even higher pedestal, expecting more out of me than I can produce. Still others don’t give me the benefit of the doubt, choosing instead to treat me like the child which grew up there.
So in a sense, I feel more comfortable being a visitor at a small rural congregation in Sumner County or Kentucky, rather than being a member in my own home congregation. Psychologically it can be draining.

No need to prove anything

I think last week at camp was one of the first times that I haven’t had to impress anyone. I had proven myself time and time again, so there was no need to kiss up to anyone. Just being myself was easy enough and I wasn’t too worried about what people thought about me.
That homesick kid which I spoke about earlier? I think I was at that point a year or so ago. Very self conscious. Worried about what people thought about me. Worried about my appearance. What I wore. Afraid of meeting new people. I think talking to someone who was anxious at a much smaller scale opened my eyes to the view of how others see themselves. At some point we are all anxious, depressed people. Homesickness. Rejection by fellow Christians at our own churches. What we do with it…how we get out of our troubles is up to us. We’ve fooled ourselves into thinking that self esteem is some sort of arrogance. Yet God Himself wants us to have a healthy amount of self esteem, after all how can we love others if we don’t love ourselves?

Camp (again)

Back from camp. Taylor Christian Camp 2006. Good show.
Much of my time the first few days was taken up trying to convince a homesick camper not to go home. He was the only one from his home congregation. He was a homebody, and very much liked the company of his parents. Convincing him not to go was a time monopolizer. For a while there he was my shadow. And for him, his camp experience lasted until midday Wednesday. He made it farther than I expected.
This was the camp which I’ll remember as being in a different stage in my life. No longer was I the freshfaced post college grad looking for a week of vacation. This was work. This was responsiblity. I’m glad I did it. I think it is where God wants me to be.

Goodwill

I stopped by our local Goodwill store the other day. It’s strange. In elementary and junior high school, if you wanted to taunt somebody you would tell them that their mom has to shop at Goodwill. Then sometime in the late 1990’s it became cool to shop at Goodwill. There was always bragging rights whenever someone found a great bargin at Goodwill with hip clothing which was “almost new.”
So I browsed around the store. There’s always those t-shirts which someone got at their work/school/church function which was only really meaningful to that person. And yet, it must have not been that meaningful since the shirt was given up.
I’ve noticed that each of these t-shirts have a story behind them…and unanswered questions. The Dell Spherion shirt? Was it received at some company function celebrating a milestone? Did the little league shirt get many grass stains on it due to heavy play? I managed to snag a “Crieve Hall Church of Christ Bible Bowl 1999” shirt, a novelty within itself. I wonder if the former owner of the shirt answered many (or any) questions at the Bible Bowl.

Gum Springs, TN

On my way back from Fall Creek Falls, I took the long way around through Sparta and Smithville. Just outside of Sparta is the community of Gum Springs which my mom grew up in. I had stopped there a handful of times and decided to spend 20 minutes of my time driving by my grandparent’s old house.
I managed to get there based soley on memories. No road maps. No knowledge of street names. Merely remembering the route I would travel almost every other weekend during the early elementary years of my life. The look of the fence at the turn off from Route 70, the small store across the street from my mom’s elementary school, the church where my parents were married, and the narrow road going to my grandparents’ farm….
From 1977 to up until my grandfather died in 1985, my parents would pack my sister up in our 1977 Volkswagen Beetle (later a 1982 VW Rabbit) and go to the farm to see my grandparents. Now, about 25 years later, here I was in my own Beetle driving along country roads of my childhood. I guess at times, history repeats itself.
The farmhouse is rented out to a family I don’t know. I paused briefly as I drove by it. It didn’t have as big of a yard as I remember it. Of course everything seems bigger when you are young. The electric fence which held the cattle had been dismantled. The only cattle in sight was across the street where my great-grandmother’s house once stood. Outside my grandparent’s house, a young girl played. I didn’t dare to stay too long, making myself at risk for being an outsider near private property.
The church where my parents were married hasn’t changed much. My mom says that membership has dwindled, probably loosing many of their members to larger churches within the town of Sparta itself. Rural churches as a whole are dying out.
As I drove along I found myself jealous of those resident’s lifestyle of rural culture. Sometimes I want to live in rural areas thinking that the slower lifestyle would make me happier.

Fall Creek Falls

This weekend around 150 folks from church went camping at Fall Creek Falls. It’s a 10+ year tradition, something that I’ve been a part of for around 3 years. Seems to get bigger each year, with more and more families coming, and more and more people upgrading to campers.
I think our worship service Sunday morning at Fall Creek Falls was how God would have wanted worship. We traded our suits and ties for shorts and t-shirts. Our pews were folding lawn chairs. Our big screen was the clouds in the sky. Just a simple worship service in a wooded campground. I’m sure if you took away the pop-up campers, the Winnebagoes, and the lawn chairs, it would have looked very similar to how the early Christians would have worshipped.
Sunday at lunchtime it rained. Rather than sit in the tent all day, I decided to drive toward the park exit and found myself heading toward Pikeville. With 2 restaurants, one being a McDonald’s, I decided to try to find more variety in Crossville. Crossville is a wannabe Cookeville. No doubt both cities are rivals of sorts. In Crossville I found myself in one of the most run-down Long John Silver’s in the state. The furniture looked as though they came from a Goodwill swapmart. The floor behind the counter was dirty and in full view of the customers. They served Coca-cola, which is a rarity among the Yum! branded restaurants (sister restaurants being Pizza Hut, Taco Bell, and KFC). I began to think that the LJS was probably an independent (read non-corporate) owned entity, which hadn’t yet gotten the corporate memo to serve Pepsi and to clean up their dining room. I should have gone to the Wendy’s down the block.
Perhaps due to directional insufficiencies and shear laziness, I didn’t get to see the Falls. I drove around trying to find the lookout and Buzzard’s Roost Monday afternoon, but never did succeed. I gave up and drove toward Spencer.
I’ve always had a fascination toward Buzzard’s Roost after being introduced to it 9 years ago at a church camp at Fall Creek Falls. I had revisited it a handful of times, both physically and through photographs since then. There is a safe area, a deck built by the road, then just in front of the deck, is a rock outcrop. Merely taking too many steps in the wrong direction would mean falling a few hundred feet to the bottom of the valley.

Camp

I was up at Taylor Christian Camp for their 20th Anniversary fundraising dinner. We toured camp, sang, and heard a message about the impact this camp has had on a generation of children and adults. Our featured speaker reflected how there is something about this place that makes us not want to leave. And I didn’t want to leave today. So many memories. So many times which I truly felt closest to God was at this ridge in rural Allen County, Kentucky. So many friendships have been cultivated. So many opportunities to do God’s will.
Camp has changed. From new cabins, to bathrooms within the cabins, to new craft houses, the whole makeup of camp has changed since I stepped foot on the campus in June 1991 as a fresh-faced 16 year old who thought I knew everything. Still recognizable with its distinct ridge view, the camp is physcially like before. Yet the old facilities have been taken down (except for the main lodge), and new ones replaced. Mere shacks were dismated with replacement of sturdy metal cabins. Where once was wilderness, now there are craft cabins, basketball courts, and volleyball sandpits.
Not only camp has changed, I’ve changed. No longer am I the naive person willing to believe whatever someone throws my way. Now I’m more decerning.
So I guess I’m in the reflecting mood. What if I hadn’t of gone to camp during that summer of 1991 when Bill Speight took about half a dozen of us to camp with other Kentucky churches? What if I had gone home that day I arrived for fear of not knowing anybody? Ironically now it seems that this camp is one of the few places where I feel comfortable.

Oasis Concert

I’ll admit I’m a causal fan of Oasis. I haven’t bought any of their CD’s. All of their music I’ve downloaded. I first became aware of them via VH1’s Behind the Music. So many good songs. Not just Wonderwall, a song known by just the less than casual fan. Practically every song they sing is good.
So when tickets went on sale for their March 26th show at the Ryman, I took it upon myself to get tickets…even if they did have an obstructed view.
So my group and I arrived a few minutes after the opening act opened. They were good for an opening act, but I’ve since forgotten their name.
In the lobby area of the Ryman you could hear mostly British accents. Lots of soccer football shirts. This phenomenon was to be expected, after all Oasis is the quentesential British band of the ’90s. Now their status as the #1 Britpop band has somewhat been eclipsed by Coldplay.
What one needs to know about the Ryman is that it is the mother church of country music. Pews. Stained glass windows. I’m not sure the majority of the crowd relized this since they seemed to be climbing all of these pews, which would seem halfway sacreligous to this Nashville native. One very drunk audience member in front of me must have thought he was at some sort of soccer match rather than an Oasis concert. He was told multiple times by female ushers to stop standing on the pews. He only stopped when some very big security guards came up to overlook the situation.
Still the concert was excellent. The only negative thing I could say is that the band was a bit too loud and distorted at times. They are more of an arena band rather than an small venue band, such as the Ryman. I guess it might be a testamony of how their popularity has dropped since the mid 1990s.
I couldn’t understand the Gallagher brothers’ commentary in between the songs, due their thick British accent. It was sorta funny to watch the subtitles on “Behind the Music,” but with the Gallagher brothers, it is definitely needed.
The played a variety of songs, many from their latest album. That being the case, I wasn’t able to identify the name of the song, nor sing along with them. The old songs I knew.
Here is a partial playlist:
1. Turn Up the Sun
2. Lyla
3. —
4. What’s the Story Morning Glory?
5. Cigarretes & Alcohol
6. The Importance Of Being Idle
7. Masterplan
8. —-
9. A Bell Will Ring
10. Acquiescene
11. Live Forever
12. —
13. Wonderwall
14. Champagne Supernova
15. Rock n Roll Star
Encore
16. Guess God Thinks I’m Abel
17. Mucky Fingers
18. Don’t Look Back in Anger
19. My Generation (The Who cover)
There was times which lead singer Liam would sing the verse and just stand back and let the audience sing the chorus. He had no emotion, but just stood stoic with his hands in his sport jacket’s front pockets. Other times Liam would completely leave the stage and let his brother Noel, the creative force behind Oasis, sing.
2 British flags and a beach ball were being held up in the crowd. Noel and Liam both threw out the tamborines which were used in the show. One tamborine landed a few yards from me and was held up by the receiver as somewhat of a trophy of the concert.
Excellent concert. A historic venue. I really expected Oasis to try to cover some country music song, perhaps even the late Buck Owen’s “Act Naturally,” which was made famous by Ringo Starr (who’s son is the current drummer for Oasis). But, alas, they only played Oasis songs, except for a cover of The Who’s “My Generation.”
Maybe I’ll end up buying an Oasis album sometime. There is rumor of a greatest hits album, which in that case I’ll hang out until that one comes along…