The Reluctant Missionary

Buddy, our mission trip organizer, stopped by last night and gave my dad the scoop on El Salvador. My dad teaches a Bible class on Wednesday nights and was unable to attend the planning classes.
I’m feel a bit more overwhelmed by it. I guess it didn’t dawn on me that I’d have to supply some of my own food during the meals. I guess Vienna sausage is in order. That and Spam maybe. PB&J. Still trying to figure the logostics of transporting a loaf of bread to Latin America without getting it smashed.
Then again usually when it is so hot, I forget about eating anyways. I don’t get hungry when I am sweating. Thirsty, yes. Hunger, no.
I hope I am doing the right thing. I don’t want to get down there and be completely confused and lost. I hate not knowing what is going on. My whole year is planned out already. Not being able to predict what will happen once I get down there is killing me.
Still I don’t want this El Salvador trip to be an annual thing. I already do 2 camps a year and can’t afford another thing to take up vacation time. I feel as though I do camps better than what I could ever do mission trips. So I should do camps given the choice.
I’m supposed to be the photographer for the mission trip. I don’t think this is a difficult, nor necessary job that HAS to be done. I’m not even that good of a photographer. I hope I’ll do ok. Worst case scenerio is my film gets x-rayed at the airport and all my film is lost. Therefore I’m trying to keep some plastic bags around to keep that from happening.
I’m not a preacher. I’m not a song leader. I’m not even a very good Sunday school teacher. In any other situation I would never consider myself a missionary.

Angry Muslims

Went to a job fair today. Saw half a dozen people who I knew…mostly looking for jobs. It was amazing to see a handful of job hunters in jeans and t-shirt. I guess they could have been applying for blue collar jobs….or retail. McDonald’s had a booth and so did Waffle House. Waffle House has to go out and recruit at job fairs?
Anyways I felt like I did get a few good leads among the schmoozing. I hate kissing up to people.
So apparently Scott posted more stuff to his webpage. Without even being asked. Its cool to read about his life and all. This one was kinda boring. All about school. I’m glad those days are over. When you’re in school, there’s all this pressure to make good grades. Then when you’re out looking for a job, you find that companies don’t really care where you went to school or your GPA. They only care about experience or lack thereof.
It’s ok, Scott, to feel stupid in class. I’ve been made to feel stupid many many times over, most recently this past Wednesday night. But I digress. Ultimately in the long run, it’s not going to make a bit of difference what grade you made in Organic lab or History. Should have been like me. I majored in Government because it was an easy “A” and because I like discussing current events. I had no want or talent to become a doctor…..or even a lawyer. So I stuck to my guns. Majored in Government; minored in Computers. Am I a better person because of it? Maybe. I probably should have majored in computers, because I have yet to use any of this junk I learned in my Political Science classes. You can talk philosophy all day, but it won’t get you a good job. Neither will experience…so it seems. It’s who you know and whether or not there’s an angry Muslim around to make the economy turn sour.
Speaking of angry Muslims, I fear that we might have created 100 Bin Ladens with this war. The way Al Jazeria TV is playing it….that the Americans are invaders….bent on killing civilians and stealing Iraqi oil. Hey Ahab, we’re the good guys, remember? So how are the next Bin Ladens going to strike? Nuke? Blowing up something big? I don’t know and I hope it never happens. I’ve got to keep telling myself that God is in control.

“In war there is no room for wiseguys…let’s just get it done with, get it cleaned up with as easy and as best we can, and pray to God that everybody gets home.”
–David Letterman 4/2/03

My Seven Nation Army

I have discovered “Seven Nation Army” by the White Stripes. It’s coming out on their forthcoming album “Elephant.” It sounds as if it could have been written in the 1970s. Its baseline is reminiscent of Iron Butterfly’s “In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida.” That’s what makes it fresh and new. While boy bands and bland rock bands come out with the same sounding stuff, somehow the ‘Stripes are cool and new. Kids, let’s review what we’ve already learned.
Old and busted: Creed.
New hotness: The White Stripes.
Here are seven other songs I’ve discovered lately:

  • Bruce Springsteen – “Into the Fire” – has an amazing chorus in this anthem type song:

    May your strength give us strength
    May your faith give us faith
    May your hope give hope
    May your love bring us love

  • R.E.M. – “Superman” – I’ve had heard this song before. First discovered in a car advertisement.
  • Peter Gabriel – “Washing of the Water” – This song went completely unnoticed on my Peter Gabriel album “Us” from 1994. I heard it again in the movie “Angus.” Excellent song. The lyrics almost subtly referring to baptism, or at least I’d like to think so.
  • Mick Jagger – “Don’t Tear Me Up” – Why didn’t the Stones do this? No, Jagger doesn’t ever want to see your picture again.
  • Matthew Sweet – “Girlfriend” – Is this any better guitar song out there? I didn’t think so.
  • NoFX – “Stand By Me” – A great punk cover of the Ben E. King classic. If it wasn’t for those 2 little wirty dords in it, it would have been perfect. Todd introduced me to this song.
  • Dinah Washington – “Is You Is Or Is You Ain’t My Baby” – Maybe this song should have been written and preformed in the 1960s. Great horn sounds. “It’s got a beat and you can dance to it. I’ll give it 9 stars, Casey.”

Throwaway T-shirts

I got these throwaway shirts to wear when we’re in El Salvador. Basically they are misprinted or have some type of flaw on it which keeps them from selling them. After we wear them we give them to the natives for their own sparse collections. Basically I have two types. One is a boy band called “TRUEVibe.” I did some research on them. Found out they opened for Destiny’s Child and Aaron Carter. So in other words, I would never wear this shirt, if only in El Salvador. (Waiting for people to point and laugh). So the flaw might just be the boy band on it. Perhaps there was some big scandal with the boy band which makes it where you couldn’t even give these shirts away in America.
The other shirt is a high school graduation t-shirt with the class’ signatures on the back. I think its from Columbia Central High in Maury County. But I’ve yet to confirm it. No year on it. What’s the use of having no year? That must have been the misprint.
I’m glad we have these shirts. It was either this or having to go to Goodwill and buying a bunch of tshirts….which I won’t be doing.
Still, this isn’t a fashion trip. Scrubs and throwaway tshirts. That will pretty much be it.
We’ll be going to Usulutan, a relatively large city in El Salvador. I don’t have population figures for it, but I’ve been able to find it in alot of El Salvadorian maps.
Things to bring (apart from the usual camping gear):

  • Scrubs…thin clothing which should be thin enough to provide with some breathing room during the hot days.
  • Air matress. No beds to sleep on. I’ll need that or a cot. Plus we are supposed to “borrow” pillows and blanket from the plane ride down. Supposedly they are going to throw them away after we use them, so we are just making the best use from them.
  • Plastic bags to keep each day’s clothing in – Helps keep clothing seperated. And dust free!

Things not to bring:

  • Shorts…if only to sleep in. For some odd reason we are supposed to wear pants during our stay there. Mine is not to question the governing authorities there. However I kinda wish the same restrictions were placed on shorts being worn to our home worship services.
  • Chocolate – it will melt in the heat. Being without chocolate and pizza for 8 days might be a turning point. Perhaps some chocolate gram crackers are in order.
  • Camouflage We don’t want this to look like a military operation.
  • Large amounts of money, valuables, jewelry. These people are very poor and some would be likely to steal from you.
  • Bad attitudes I keep telling myself to leave any bad attitudes at home. Sometimes you just need to grin a bear it. Things don’t work the same way in El Salvador as it does here. “Tomorrow” might mean 6 months from now.

It seems like this preparation time has come very quickly. Seems like it was just recently that I was just thinking about going. We’ll see how it goes….

Welcome to the 21st Century

I guess this is what it has come to. Applying for jobs I’m neither qualified for, nor have an interest in having. Welcome to the new normal. Welcome to the 21st Century. Welcome to being told you’re either underqualified or over qualified for a job.
I saw One Hour Photo tonight. What a very weird movie. Makes me wonder I have any stalkers out there hanging on every word I type. Nah. I’m not that interesting. Just another idiot with a webpage, you know.
So today is April Fools Day. Some of the webpages I visit quite regularly had a facelift on account of the day. Fake news stories abounded on the net. Probably fooled alot of people.

Making the Movable Type Changeover

So I finally moved all my stuff over to Movable Type. That “Link of the Moment” along the left side of the webpage? Well all that stuff is on MT now. I had been using Blogger for that part of the webpage. I was too lazy to immediately move it over. However I got tired of Blogger going down frequently. So I moved it over.
Blogger is still good for people who need a web diary and want to update it frequently. I would never pay for the pro version. The extras just don’t warrant the switchover. Blogger is a good thing. I first read about it in Yahoo Internet Life magazine which is how this weblog started. I didn’t see myself as updating it everyday, but I guess I am because there’s nothing else better to do.
Well I’ve got a job fair on Thursday. I’m not really looking forward to it because I hate kissing up to people. I hate acting enthusiastic about something I am completely bored with. But I know that it must be done. So get ready for it. I’m trying to do some research on the companies represented so I don’t sound like a complete fool when talking to people.
Is it me or do all of these weird diseases start off in China? What’s up with that? Smallpox started there in the 12th century. The flu usually starts there every Fall. Now we’ve got this SARS disorder. Good grief.

The Kid

I caught “Disney’s The Kid” last night. Its a good movie. If you can get past the usual Disney sappiness. The general premise of the movie is Russ, a 40 year old high powered consultant meets his 8 year old self. It’s got that Wonder Years/Freaky Friday-esque type of feeling for it.
The 8 year old Rusty is played by Spencer Breslin who is sure to win any cute kid award they give out. Spencer does a really good job in this movie making it fun and watchable. Reminds me of Chunk in The Goonies.
One of the better part of the movie is when both the old and young Russ’s go back to 1968 to change history. In a Back to the Future type style scene, the young Rusty beats up his bully nemesis. Makes you wonder. If we could go back in time to our childhoods and watch ourselves from a distance, would we have a different impression of our childhood? Probably.
During much of the movie, the older Russ dislikes how the younger Rusty looks and acts. “Too fat” or “talks like he has marbles in his mouth.” I’d probably hate my younger self too. When we are young our inferiorities tend to be magnified, at least in our own minds….even though realistically it may not be the case.

Schlotzsky’s was my best friend today

I was feeling a bit anti-social following the worship service, so I left without going for the soup and sandwiches fellowship meal. Schlotzsky’s was my best friend today. I guess it was me not wanting to wait in line and then find a place to sit with people I know. I hate alkward moments. So I avoid them if at all possible.
I know I’m supposed to try to be friendly toward new people, yet I’m just not good at meeting people. Public relations would not be my strong point. It’s not that I’m trying to be arrogant toward anyone. Its that it takes me a while to warm up to people. Most people who know me know that I am friendly. It helps if there’s something in common with initually. Computers. Music. Humor. Something like that.
And please note: “Anti-social” isn’t meant as some kind of deviant behavior. More of “I needed time alone.”
So I’m wondering about this war. I’m trying to find some moral justification for this war. I keep telling myself we’re the good guys in this war. Can we somehow convince the Iraqis that we are there to help instead of instituting our colonization? The media over there is pretty biased. They’re calling American soldiers “the invaders.” So somehow the whole society is precipitating suicide bombers and hatred toward America.