It is amazing how many good sermons I’ve preached to myself while lying in bed late at night. I can come up with the best analogies. The most eloquent spoken words. The best sermons ever. To myself.
I do give my El Salvador trip report in Scottsville tomorrow. I hope it goes well. You never know. I could flub it up forever. But I think ever since I’ve started teaching, I’m more and more comfortable up in front of people. At ease if you will.
My problem is self confidence. I need to be constantly be told that I did a good job. And if I’m not told that, I will ask “How did I do?” for you to give your honest answer. Needing to be constantly told that I did ok is a flaw in me. I really should feel good about myself. To not let anyone tell me otherwise. Unfortunately I do let people get to me. I do let minor flaws get in my way of serving God to the best of my ability.
Shrug it off. I know I’m better than that. I’m much better than what I ever give myself credit for. I know I’ve accomplished alot in just a few short years. Look to the future where much more work needs to be done. And the only way I can accomplish it, is to be confident in myself.