I am getting my faith back. Slowly but surely. Sometimes I feel so jaded toward organized religion. Religion is so much more personal than it was 2 years ago. Two years ago I would have taken things at face value. Now I’m looking for a “thus saith the Lord” on everything. Otherwise your faith is as empty as pagan beliefs.
Some people use their faith to gain a better position in the world. To look good for themselves. I’m trying to gain a faith that grows me closer to my savior each and every day. And it is difficult. Especially when you feel so self conscious about what people at your church think of you. Ultimately the only thing that matters is that God loves me unconditionally. That’s what I keep telling myself.
I just wish things could easily be like they were 2 years ago. It was just a short time ago, but yet it seems so far away. Things seemed to be “just right” then. It was so much simplier.