This funk

For those of you uninitiated, depression is a very real thing. It is not just the blues. Not just having a bad day. It’s days and weeks of having bad days. It can mean not sleeping at times. It can mean having your stomach tied up in knots. I don’t know if I’ll get better. I am tired of feeling this way, but I don’t know how or where to stop.
You hate the things you used to enjoy. Your faith in God takes a rollercoaster ride. What happened? I don’t know.